it takes a friend not an ass to make u feel like shit

soo, like i havent posted in years...;]
not realy but it feels that way..so my fams came to keep my mom sane. for the past week(s) or soo since the divorce is happing and that simply sucks on a whole new level of suckness..(+) matthew and I hit a rough patch, in a very akward kinda wierd friendship and I say all those things casue during these weeks something happened between (us). Prom was last weekend and though everything is going on I tried to keep myself very composed..anyway at prom(rather after prom) me, matthew paige, josh, lupe, allie , cardinal, and andy(josh and paige are my family) and everyone else is /are my new group of friends that i hang with..but yeah..we staed at the comfort inn, to simply party with alcohol, ciggs, and party music..;]
anyway I ended up drunk and happy and everryone else was sort of the same, anyway we all had a good time, but than it got akward between us casue my cusin josh started to fuck paige, right there in the middle of the room, akward..and than everyone started doing it the only ones that did'nt where well me&matthew(yes even alli who never has sex, at least never talks about it) ;]
thats when matthew joked maybe me and you should just do it!! ;] haha
well Im drunk and like an idiot that i become when drunk leaned in and kissed his mouth thats when he pulled off of me letting me drop to the floor(we were sitting in a weird position.) but anyway he was like what the fuck camille are you fucking stupid yu dumb drunk bitch!! :0
and thats when i started yelling but im to drunk to make sense he later calmed down and was like maybe we should just not talk for a while...what the fuck im drunk you stupid ass anyway soo we havent talked for two weeks and defo dont plan on apologizing what ever i doubt i made any sense here but i need someone to listen to bye!! ;]

colbert understood!! ;]

okay soo this so this is my least favo of all blogs!! ;]
today my cusion josh is coming in from new york where he resides with his grilfriend paige!! ;]
she also just recently got a blog casue i dont like to do anything else but blog, anyway so he.s coming into to try and repel me from going to florida(why) i dont know hill i listen no! ;]
will i be glad hes coming (if they were for different reasons yes!! ;]
anyway this ones quick and short!! ;]
anyway hi alan