it takes a friend not an ass to make u feel like shit

soo, like i havent posted in years...;]
not realy but it feels that way..so my fams came to keep my mom sane. for the past week(s) or soo since the divorce is happing and that simply sucks on a whole new level of suckness..(+) matthew and I hit a rough patch, in a very akward kinda wierd friendship and I say all those things casue during these weeks something happened between (us). Prom was last weekend and though everything is going on I tried to keep myself very composed..anyway at prom(rather after prom) me, matthew paige, josh, lupe, allie , cardinal, and andy(josh and paige are my family) and everyone else is /are my new group of friends that i hang with..but yeah..we staed at the comfort inn, to simply party with alcohol, ciggs, and party music..;]
anyway I ended up drunk and happy and everryone else was sort of the same, anyway we all had a good time, but than it got akward between us casue my cusin josh started to fuck paige, right there in the middle of the room, akward..and than everyone started doing it the only ones that did'nt where well me&matthew(yes even alli who never has sex, at least never talks about it) ;]
thats when matthew joked maybe me and you should just do it!! ;] haha
well Im drunk and like an idiot that i become when drunk leaned in and kissed his mouth thats when he pulled off of me letting me drop to the floor(we were sitting in a weird position.) but anyway he was like what the fuck camille are you fucking stupid yu dumb drunk bitch!! :0
and thats when i started yelling but im to drunk to make sense he later calmed down and was like maybe we should just not talk for a while...what the fuck im drunk you stupid ass anyway soo we havent talked for two weeks and defo dont plan on apologizing what ever i doubt i made any sense here but i need someone to listen to bye!! ;]

colbert understood!! ;]

okay soo this so this is my least favo of all blogs!! ;]
today my cusion josh is coming in from new york where he resides with his grilfriend paige!! ;]
she also just recently got a blog casue i dont like to do anything else but blog, anyway so he.s coming into to try and repel me from going to florida(why) i dont know hill i listen no! ;]
will i be glad hes coming (if they were for different reasons yes!! ;]
anyway this ones quick and short!! ;]
anyway hi alan

matthew and alli

twilight is offically the best movie only cause i say it is though the books are way better at least i can enjoy these good-looking people!! ;]
robert pattinson, kristen sweart(and the rest)

grrrrr! ;] im wild

okay soo well this is it!! ;]

yeahy..im gona go see it when it comes out!! ;]

i cant wait!! ;]

yeahy yeahy, yeahy!! ;]

thats kinda it! ;]

anyway grrr!! ;]

outoftheordinaryrandomnessbliss

yup thats me!! ;]
soo ive really been thinkin about what i should do here(this point in my life)
i know im going to college
i know what i wanna major/minor
but thats all seemingly too far away to do it realy now(or rather i need something(someone) to keep me busy now!) ;]
but i dont know..
wow i realy dont know much if you think about it haha..
anyway thats funny only to those who really know me, but i guess thats what makes me different, casue i suppose that i have alot of "inside" jokes and stuff but i tend to tell it to you who is that strange wow what the hell im i even writing??
but i guess that cause I havent written on this blog in a while i need to write on it..
god i feel like simply doin nothing but if you raed my post earlier than you know im going to go see "fucking orange it's me teacher(rather teachers assistence)'s band and I heard somestuff decent..i.ll try taking pics!! ;]
bye!! ;]

wtf jacobe!! ;]

haha..the title is thanks to my dearest friend matthew!! ;]
while in AP chem we sat in the back and thanks AP chem filling up 2 whole classes togethere it was packed way too go school administrators!! ;]
so we had to sit at the lab tables that are now my favo place to sit!! ;]
and we ended up doin a lab asst. and we need 2 more partners and since alli took off ap chem for 2nd period we were left a person short usualy us three pick on lucky person to join us!! ;]
but thats another story!!
soo..anyway there was 3 candidates this new boy named jacobe, a girl who is 1st chair in top 100 students that bi-otch!! ;]
anyway, an this other guy named carlos
so we picked carlos and the new boy, casue the smart girl girl got pick by some other ppl, but they arent important!! ;]
any way the boys came to join us they didnt know us and we them, since they were put in our class from 1st period to make room far the damed freshman!! ;(
not all are damed!!
but okay back to the point camy..
;]
okay soo we asked them some Q's and they asked us than..it happened..the homo Q came up!!!
jacobe asked us the question, is matthew gay??
wat the hell man!!
we dont even kno u an u ask him like that..
just kiddin it made me laugh casue u wouldnt think that matthew is gay until he told u, himself or he kissed another boy or something in front of u!! ;]
but he only asked cause matthew had these rainbows on his sweater(mine) but he uses it all the tym, its way to tight for him!! ;]

okay anyway i was like he..and than matthew goes No wat the fuck jacobe i dont even kno u and shit this is my girlfriend an points to me!! ;]
if by this point i was luaghing now i was dyin of how funny it all turned into!! ;]
the poor guy didnt say a word after that an was just quite the rest of the experiment!!
anywya we kept it goin by holdin on to each other realy tight and touchin each other and stuff!! ;]
near the end of the class he was like im realy sorry i didnt mean to say anything and stuff im really sorry, its just that i thought if u were we could hangout cause i am, but i realy didnt mean to affend u an stuff!! ;(
he had realy been hurt i felt bad so i stoped an was like no, its okay he realy is gay!! ;]
it was a bad joke an im sorry
he truned a lil red and was like ooo.
still im sorry
an thats when matthew was like dont sweat it fag, its all cool, an plus welcopme to the club!! ;]
and showed him his tatoo of that symbol sign or watever that has the man sign linked and in a rainbow color soo gay!! ;]
anyway..that was my mornin, it 10:15 rite kno an im stuck in my library as an assit. stackin books an puttin them back on the shelf!!
i dont mind casue it means i get to use the computer when no one needs a book checked out!! ;]
fone tyms!! ;]

poems!! ;]

he holds u tight,

he holds u close,

he tells u ur the girl he luvs the most

u wait for him to come

to your dismay the sound of the beating drum

echos in the east

like the savage beast, that rattles its cage

the war rages beneth ur feet

a letter is sent for u to meet

u wait in the shadows beneth the old oak tree

to fight or flee

u ponder on a minute, o were might my wonderous knight be

but with a howl and a hiss, ur body shakes and shivers in fright

the night has ended and day break comes with a strike

the widowers cry for their lost luvs to hum

but no knight is to be seen, so it makes u numb

u find him lying on the river bed

u hold him close through the ragged torn armor the blood runs red

u hold him tight

u hold him close

u tell him he is the one u luv the most

picture of above was the reason for this peom!! ;]
hope u liked it

hope u like!! ;] my new peom! ;]

he tells me he luvs me
he tells me he cares
bullshit as if he dares,
he lies to my faces
give me the lighter im gona set my world on fire
just to watch it blaze an burn in passion
Omg that top is soo fuckin "in" fashion..
haha..ur such a god dam lier!!
give me ur heart im gona stomp all over it,
listen to me just sit,sit,sit!
down the drain my hopes and dreams go..
just like the lunch i ate 5 minutes ago..
u dont believe me how bout a free peep show
he makes the world stop for me! ;]
i want u 2 c
how much im hurtin without me havin to show u
casue i thought that wat we had was true!!
now ur gone an i dont blame!!
casue im a bitch an i made it all turn to shame!!


though it might seem a bit mean an kinda awful, i dont actualy feel like this all the tym but kinda my take on realtionships!! ;]

okay this ones a quicky!

ha..forgive me for the crude dirty humor, if u got it!! ;]
anyway, its ap english rite kno..and i should be typin up my second draft for my essay,
[how am i rite kno, who do i want 2 b, and how will i make that happen?]
same topic for like a million years rite?? ;]
anyway, matthew is rite next 2 me!!
grrrr!!
he keeps hittin all my keys and makin it look all stupid!! ;]
anyway were gettin yeld at for makin to much noise anyway it.s gona be lunch in like 15min!! ;]
it.s 11:42!! ;]
the snows kinda meltin, away since the bi-otch of a sun is finaly decidin to come out!! ;]
anyway..i need me some food!! ;]
hopefully matthews boyfriend brings us some pai wi!! ;]
dont thats how its spelled!! ;]
god i need food!!
anyway i said this would be quick and its turn into an entire piece..
jezz stop writin u idiot!! ;]
i cant stop an now im writtin to myself!! ;]
haha..
okay bye!! ;]♥
matthew u says hi-"H! ♥"
okay im done thank u!! ;]

humor makes the pain go away

these pictures are well just like the others, but with a rather humourous twist!! ;]

i luv them not for the comdic humor but because how elegantly portarayed they are even when u kno u cant hold a straight face lookin at them u must appreciate how well they all look!!

also i would like u to get a crack on it an see if u kno wat each picture is from, or is supposed to mean??

this is basicaly the run down of my mornin!! ;]

the first one is about my gettin ready casue we all kno mornin breathe aint purty!! ;]

the second is of me actually ready, the dog tag was a good necklace to wear, they were $80 bucks at the mall it has a beautiful quote from Albert Einstein-the only thing distracting me from my knowledge, is my education! ;]

beautiful!! ;]

anyway an the last one is the barter bus!! ;]

its free tanspo for the kids!! ;]

but u gotta have a pass for it!! ;]

or else it would be 2 dollas to ride!! ;]

an the cup is from dunkin dounuts!! ;]

yum

the vanity

the pictures Above r pretty self-explanitory! ;]

there my favorite movies!! ;]

an thats that no need to explain why!! ;]

also im realy sorry alan!! ;]

i havent been myself lately!! ;(

following white rabbits

clearly im not sure what im actualy doing, or even more so i have no clue as to how im actualy affecting the way you think of me?? ;]
but realy dont care..
anyway this stupid font is too big!! ;( grrrrr
anyhow, im actualy tired of talkin about school, its simply the same this whole week has been well all blah!! ;]
but today is actualy goin rock my panties as because the long wait has finaly come yup!! ;]
watchmen is out yeahy!! ;]
but anyway I found these amazing pics an had 2 post them!! ;]

nicole richie

Max Minghella

so im kinda a big liar!! ;(

well!! ;]
this is the realy me!! ;]
if u think i did it on purpose u.ll have to tell matthew something both he an alli told me to do that and see wat would happen!! ;]
my name is camille,
an well this is the real me plez weest dont b mad!! ;(
i dont want u to be mad at me!!! ;]
i like u to much!! ;]

well well well mr. bond we meet again, for the last tym!

well, well, well!! ;]
okay it was amazinly funny today although im still mad about the stupid testin thats goin on..
but i had a free iced mocha!! ;] wich is always code for best day eva!! ;]
anyway i got on the bus and this cute college guy from UCD was there!! an he and buddyz alway flirt wit me an alli!! ;]
to bad we have no classes togethere!! ;(
it would b fun but anyway..
matthew totaly killed frankin furtter!! ;]
from the rocky horror picture show skit we did!! ;]
he was amazin as always!!
but yeah my nemisis was in theatre totaly smoochin her new boyfriend an shes not even supposed to be there!! ;(
but like always nobody but me cared!! ;]
watever shes a bitch and thats that!! ;]
oooo... almost forgot i hate u sky!! ;]
well sky my wanna b boyfriend!! ;]
ur a dick to alli so u kno wat i kno ull look at my blog and be like why tommorrow!! ;]
but u cant tell alli that she needs to lose wieght u huge dick!! >:(
so dont talk to me tommorow an stop tellin everyone that im ur girlfriend!! ;]
because im not also ive seen ur "goods' if thats what u wanna call them, not good enough!! ;]
luv u alli!! ;]
ur perfect just the way u r!! ;]
also wesst! ;]
ur perfect to!!
no matter wat some loser says!! ;]
okay!! ;]
i like u lots u big cutey!! ;]
well that was my day 4 yeah enjoy!! ;d

screw boys wit their little toys!! ;]

anyway!!
i wanna kno wat gives someone the rite to think they can automaticaly say immature things to me, an than ask my for my number?? ;(
boys r stupid!!
thank go matthew was there an he totaly played the straight guy role 4 me!! ;]
an was all like um sorry "dude" shes mine!! ;]
i luv u matthew!! ;]
anyway i had to make a grip of posters for the rally were have on fur is murder campigne this up coming weekend!! ;]
yeah!!!! ;]
alos had a veggie burger from burger king yuck i make-or rather matthew makes way better ones than they do!! ;]

gilbert grape vines!! ;]

omg!! ;]
let me do a runn down of my entire school day!! ;]
psychology was bleak..
photography was incredibly stupid..
ap english annoying as hell..
ap chem stupid..
and art was retarted thats it!! ;]
oo i gotta go but my dear cute friend who i adore made a cute video that made me laugh my panties off!! ;]
an yes it colorado!!! ;]

tough as nails!! ;)

had to go over my lines today!! ;]
andrew is actin like a total ass!! ;]
anyway..
matthew&I had a little picnic today lunch and very remarkable he asked his boyfriend(cute waiter from texas de brazil) ;] if he wanted to join us!! ;]
was cool wit it but anyway, had to talk to my nemisis today!! ;/
yeah..
that was sure an adventure for me, alli & matthew!!
the reason bein that she had finished her psychology homework an none of us did(lack of notes) ;]
but yeah anyway back to the point, after we asked her she was like matthew can only borrow them...she kinda likes him!! ;](hes gay)
but yeah he obiously gave them to us duh!!
she hates me cause her curruent boyfriend is my ex-ex!
and she heard me talkin stuff sayin she got my sloopy seconds an shes just jeaulous of me!! ;d
anyway listein to the saterdays-up!! ;]
great stuff!! ;]
had a muffin an hour ago still hungery!! ;]

can u dream, while ur dreaming! ;]

omg!! ;o

i just remembered that i have to go to the eye-ball doctor!! ;]
only bein cute but yeah!! ;]

i finished watchin nick&nora's infinte playlist!! ;]

god i luv it!! ;d

when a handsome man caught my eyesockets! ;]

his name if Rafi gavron!!

(drool) ;d

but yeah total hottie!! ;]

all i had to say!! ;]

misdiminor!! ;]

i want a cupecake rite about kno!! ;]

god saterday i gotta go work!! ;(

but it's something that i luv!! ;]

im gona go protest against animal fur!!

cant wait!! ;]

luv animals and would do anythin to protecct them and make their lives better!! ;]

luv my cat and dogs!!

mooch- is a golden retriever

titoo-is a minacher snozer

mr.oscar the gruch-is my tabby cat

♥-u babies!! ;p

no more bi-curious george

well!!

i was in my UCD class today and realy why the hell do i even bother with it!!

i bailed my psychology test grrrrrrrrr!!

anyway im gona be home soon!! man i just hate psychology it makes me mad that i cant ever get a good grade in that damned class watever!! i barely passed last simester!! it was only cause of my term paper which still got a low score said it lacked an insightful view piont toward the person's situtation!!
wat the hell does that mean???

ur probably wonderin about the picture and well thats wat the exam was about!!
the case was dealing with teens who are un-aware/ un-sure of their sexuality!!

which is ironic cause my friend matthew took the test next to me and said copy of of me if u want im gona ace this test!! :]
(He's gay)
an like and ifiot i didnt!! :(
but anywho i was dumped today yeah just the day b4 valentines day but i dont care about the holiday!!
(i dont believe in it!! its a halmark holiday soo watever)
im mad at the fact that he dumped in me in front of everyone at skool at lunch!! like u couldnt even wait till we were alone??
dont care about the ppl either im mad cause hes already datin a new girl no more than two hours after he dumped my ass!! ;o
watever though boyus r stupid not all though!!
the specail one kno who they are!! ;]

Gossip girl!! not sure why!! XD

Blake Lively, Leighton Meester, Penn Badgley, Taylor Momsen, Ed Westwick, Jessica Szohr, Connor Paolo, and GOSSIP GIRL is Kristen Bell

Wow i watched the show gossip girl!! and like most i thought that it was about a bunch of rich white kids who've got to much money for their own good and can do what ever they wnat cause daddy and mommy can offored it.. but to tell u the truth im actualy addicted!! ;] haha!!

i dont kno why mayb the whole sexual under tone of the whole thing makes me want to have some sex.. plus the cast is pretty dam sexxy!! i wouldnt mind havin them around but maybe thats just the way it is!! sexy ppl arent real! wouldnt mind bein wit any of the boys on the cast!! ;]

not like u cared but i do!! ;]

soo blah to!