it takes a friend not an ass to make u feel like shit

soo, like i havent posted in years...;]
not realy but it feels that way..so my fams came to keep my mom sane. for the past week(s) or soo since the divorce is happing and that simply sucks on a whole new level of suckness..(+) matthew and I hit a rough patch, in a very akward kinda wierd friendship and I say all those things casue during these weeks something happened between (us). Prom was last weekend and though everything is going on I tried to keep myself very composed..anyway at prom(rather after prom) me, matthew paige, josh, lupe, allie , cardinal, and andy(josh and paige are my family) and everyone else is /are my new group of friends that i hang with..but yeah..we staed at the comfort inn, to simply party with alcohol, ciggs, and party music..;]
anyway I ended up drunk and happy and everryone else was sort of the same, anyway we all had a good time, but than it got akward between us casue my cusin josh started to fuck paige, right there in the middle of the room, akward..and than everyone started doing it the only ones that did'nt where well me&matthew(yes even alli who never has sex, at least never talks about it) ;]
thats when matthew joked maybe me and you should just do it!! ;] haha
well Im drunk and like an idiot that i become when drunk leaned in and kissed his mouth thats when he pulled off of me letting me drop to the floor(we were sitting in a weird position.) but anyway he was like what the fuck camille are you fucking stupid yu dumb drunk bitch!! :0
and thats when i started yelling but im to drunk to make sense he later calmed down and was like maybe we should just not talk for a while...what the fuck im drunk you stupid ass anyway soo we havent talked for two weeks and defo dont plan on apologizing what ever i doubt i made any sense here but i need someone to listen to bye!! ;]

colbert understood!! ;]

okay soo this so this is my least favo of all blogs!! ;]
today my cusion josh is coming in from new york where he resides with his grilfriend paige!! ;]
she also just recently got a blog casue i dont like to do anything else but blog, anyway so he.s coming into to try and repel me from going to florida(why) i dont know hill i listen no! ;]
will i be glad hes coming (if they were for different reasons yes!! ;]
anyway this ones quick and short!! ;]
anyway hi alan

matthew and alli

twilight is offically the best movie only cause i say it is though the books are way better at least i can enjoy these good-looking people!! ;]
robert pattinson, kristen sweart(and the rest)

grrrrr! ;] im wild

okay soo well this is it!! ;]

yeahy..im gona go see it when it comes out!! ;]

i cant wait!! ;]

yeahy yeahy, yeahy!! ;]

thats kinda it! ;]

anyway grrr!! ;]

outoftheordinaryrandomnessbliss

yup thats me!! ;]
soo ive really been thinkin about what i should do here(this point in my life)
i know im going to college
i know what i wanna major/minor
but thats all seemingly too far away to do it realy now(or rather i need something(someone) to keep me busy now!) ;]
but i dont know..
wow i realy dont know much if you think about it haha..
anyway thats funny only to those who really know me, but i guess thats what makes me different, casue i suppose that i have alot of "inside" jokes and stuff but i tend to tell it to you who is that strange wow what the hell im i even writing??
but i guess that cause I havent written on this blog in a while i need to write on it..
god i feel like simply doin nothing but if you raed my post earlier than you know im going to go see "fucking orange it's me teacher(rather teachers assistence)'s band and I heard somestuff decent..i.ll try taking pics!! ;]
bye!! ;]

wtf jacobe!! ;]

haha..the title is thanks to my dearest friend matthew!! ;]
while in AP chem we sat in the back and thanks AP chem filling up 2 whole classes togethere it was packed way too go school administrators!! ;]
so we had to sit at the lab tables that are now my favo place to sit!! ;]
and we ended up doin a lab asst. and we need 2 more partners and since alli took off ap chem for 2nd period we were left a person short usualy us three pick on lucky person to join us!! ;]
but thats another story!!
soo..anyway there was 3 candidates this new boy named jacobe, a girl who is 1st chair in top 100 students that bi-otch!! ;]
anyway, an this other guy named carlos
so we picked carlos and the new boy, casue the smart girl girl got pick by some other ppl, but they arent important!! ;]
any way the boys came to join us they didnt know us and we them, since they were put in our class from 1st period to make room far the damed freshman!! ;(
not all are damed!!
but okay back to the point camy..
;]
okay soo we asked them some Q's and they asked us than..it happened..the homo Q came up!!!
jacobe asked us the question, is matthew gay??
wat the hell man!!
we dont even kno u an u ask him like that..
just kiddin it made me laugh casue u wouldnt think that matthew is gay until he told u, himself or he kissed another boy or something in front of u!! ;]
but he only asked cause matthew had these rainbows on his sweater(mine) but he uses it all the tym, its way to tight for him!! ;]

okay anyway i was like he..and than matthew goes No wat the fuck jacobe i dont even kno u and shit this is my girlfriend an points to me!! ;]
if by this point i was luaghing now i was dyin of how funny it all turned into!! ;]
the poor guy didnt say a word after that an was just quite the rest of the experiment!!
anywya we kept it goin by holdin on to each other realy tight and touchin each other and stuff!! ;]
near the end of the class he was like im realy sorry i didnt mean to say anything and stuff im really sorry, its just that i thought if u were we could hangout cause i am, but i realy didnt mean to affend u an stuff!! ;(
he had realy been hurt i felt bad so i stoped an was like no, its okay he realy is gay!! ;]
it was a bad joke an im sorry
he truned a lil red and was like ooo.
still im sorry
an thats when matthew was like dont sweat it fag, its all cool, an plus welcopme to the club!! ;]
and showed him his tatoo of that symbol sign or watever that has the man sign linked and in a rainbow color soo gay!! ;]
anyway..that was my mornin, it 10:15 rite kno an im stuck in my library as an assit. stackin books an puttin them back on the shelf!!
i dont mind casue it means i get to use the computer when no one needs a book checked out!! ;]
fone tyms!! ;]

poems!! ;]

he holds u tight,

he holds u close,

he tells u ur the girl he luvs the most

u wait for him to come

to your dismay the sound of the beating drum

echos in the east

like the savage beast, that rattles its cage

the war rages beneth ur feet

a letter is sent for u to meet

u wait in the shadows beneth the old oak tree

to fight or flee

u ponder on a minute, o were might my wonderous knight be

but with a howl and a hiss, ur body shakes and shivers in fright

the night has ended and day break comes with a strike

the widowers cry for their lost luvs to hum

but no knight is to be seen, so it makes u numb

u find him lying on the river bed

u hold him close through the ragged torn armor the blood runs red

u hold him tight

u hold him close

u tell him he is the one u luv the most

picture of above was the reason for this peom!! ;]
hope u liked it